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Went through my finances today. It doesn't look good for the wedding of my dreams. I'm a realistic girl most of the time. I actually thought in a year or so Scott and I would be able to save up 10k for a wedding. I'm not looking for a big thing, just something decent that I could be proud of you know. We are strapped as it is with no savings. I guessimated Scott's income and its more than mine so I thought he could save most of it. When I actually sat down and figured the numbers it was a no go. It made me curl up with my two dogs and cry on the couch for about 20 minutes or so. I am looking for a second job just for wedding saving money. The bad thing is Scott is not and he never will be looking for extra income. If we both had a second job even for an extra two shifts a week each my wedding would be a reality. I am the one setting the budget and he is the one enforcing it sort-of. Does he really know we can't afford it or is he just avoiding the whole process till it's too late?
The worst thing of it all is we still only have an estimation on the date sometime in July of next year. We are still waiting on his brother to give us a date. I recently found out his leave from the Army is like a vacation it rolls around 2 weeks after every November unless he is deployed and he wants to take it right before his deployment. So right now I feel most of my Wedding is not up to me, I'm not in control, not even enough control to be compromising with Scott. No control at all.....
