Maybe a longer wait afterall

Still no word from Jamey (FBIL) about a wedding date, thats not new.

I tried my very hardest tonight to have a cut off date to when it would be too late to wait for Jamey's response. (via text messaging because that's the only way to get some things resolved sometimes with Scott, kinda juvenile but, what can you do)It was a long fighting process. At the end of it all we came up with the plan (well he did, his way or the highway in life). As of right now we kinda decided on April the 10th next year but if Jamey tell us that's a good date like in December or later then we will just have to push back our dream wedding a year. That won't be adequate time to plan nor will there be any vendors or venues available probably in or out of our budget. I am kinda hoping for a July wedding again for various reasons but whatever happens, happens! The thing I am thinking is when a year passes we will be in the same boat. Jamey won't know till right before his next leave once again when he can get time off. So then the cycle will start all over again and then again till he is out of the Army. I support the troops 100%, I don't support the hurry up and wait attitude or the wait and then hurry up attitude of it all.

Organizing and such.

YaY I got a second job! It's nothing frilly or glamorous, It's a job. It's at five Guys (sit down fast food, burger joint) and under 10.00 an hour but it's something. Just enough to pay for groceries and maybe the water bill with a hundred or so left over a month to save myself for the wedding. Basically Scott said there is no money for my hair, make-up, dress alterations, Bridal shower or Bachelorette party. I also want to save for a harpist or quartet for our actual wedding ceremony. While I buy groceries and such, he will have more money to save for the big stuff...lol If we don't get enough saved I am sure I can get a loan for a couple of thousand to pay for the rest. If there's no one to help we have to help ourselves. Even if we get married with a lump of debt!

My wedding mags and papers from various bridal expo's have gotten to a point where they can't get organized looking. Unless I go through them and organize and throw out the unnecessary bulk. I even bought a nice cabinet/side table from goodwill to store everything in but it's beginning to over flow on the top. That's a goal to achieve before Monday hits!

Still no date yet from Jamey. But I don't blame him from not talking to us. We just found out he is getting married now too. He is no hurry or care right now to even think about our wedding date, he is probably thinking of his own right now (if he has set one). I am not mad or jealous so, don't think I am. It's just he almost stopped talking to us. He couldn't even tell anyone of his engagement, everyone had to find out on the internet. We have waited almost 7 months for an answer and nothing yet. I at least want to know if there is no answer yet, like a weekly update or something. Scott and I are starting to get at each other till I just want to ball up and cry! I just want a date already and until one, I can't really be happy.

Salon Alfredo.

So at 6pm tonight my MOH and I went to Salon Alfredo. We received a free facial and a make-up demonstration for a new product line they have there. The make-up is called Glo- minerals and so far I love the product. I had the make-up artist do a smoky look on my eyes, loved it. The problem is she put a shade too dark on my face and when I went into a different light (every light besides the salon) it looked horrible. I also had too much blush on and my lips were pink. I never liked pink lips with darker eyes YUCK! She asked me what kind of coverage I wanted and I said full. What I ment to say was conceal my blemishes perfectly but, please don't make me look like I'm 40 and have globs of make-up on. She full covered me alright my make-up is very visible and thick. Besides the make-up artist herself I love this line. I am still wearing it right now at 12am and it's not itchy and it still looks the same when she applied it. I love Glo-minerals! Maybe, just maybe more then Bare Essentials.

Whats up now!

So...
Nothing really going on in wedding world right now. Sooo sad to say!...lol Just Listening to Imogen Heap and thought I would blog!
Still no date, still no moolah (money). Hey that's life and I am getting over it...lol

I'm still primarily focusing on my weight dropping (well today I am). Was going to start a colon cleanse today to jump start my weight loss but, I have no funds till I get paid again on Friday. So hopefully I will start that on Friday. I am making small goals in order to achieve my ultimate goal. Maybe that will keep me more motivated. My current goal is an 11 lb loss before my birthday. So that gives me a little more than 6 weeks, around 1.75 lbs a week. Again, all you please wish me luck!

My to-do list is still piling up! When we do get the funds and a date, my life for a few months will just go to shit with all the working and planning. I just hope it's worth it in the end. Not meaning Marrying Scott just the wedding the way we are forced to plan it. I am seriously thinking of spazing out and making my own date and start the planning process without anyones approval.

Today my M.O.H and I are hopefully going to a make-up thing at this salon. It's for a mineral line they have. I have no clue on what kind of make up I am going to have for the wedding. I have acne prone skin, my skin in general is soo sensitive. I have yet to wear my ring full time cause my hands are in a mood. (chapped, dry, ichy, red, etc and nothing is seeming to work!) I use Bare Essentials make-up personally but, I do not know of a salon or professional who uses that product and I don't think BA will stay on all day cause it's all powder and I usually have to re-apply during the day currently. Lets see how today goes!

Well thats all for now. Chao!

Weight

So instead of focusing on wedding planning, which I am not. I am going to focus on losing weight and size. As I said before the perfect wedding dress, I bought already, is a size or so too small. If I don't buckle down now I am going to have to purchase another dress before the big day. My goal is just a size or two smaller. Maybe 15 or 20 lbs. For me it will be hard. I come from a long history of trying to be "That Girl" or you know, "A Size Perfect". I know what I have to do, eat better and exercise. I can write a book on it by now but, never can be role model on the subject. So I have decided to actually use the gym membership I purchased months ago. So please wish me luck everyone!

I tried..sorry

My M.O.H finally e-mailed me those dress pictures last night. You know the bridesmaids dresses from Davids Bridal I promised to show. Well unfortunately I can't show them. Either I am too computer illiterate or there's just no way to transfer them from my e-mail to computer to blogger. Probably the first. Sorry ya'll!

Not in the mood.

Two things been bothering me:

1. The fight between my Maid of Honor and I.
2. The wedding date is not set yet.

Well since our fight we have made up. But, it's not the same. We don't talk as much and I feel like we are drifting slowly apart. Since that fight she has made new friends. I was going to even try to switch gyms if it was worth it, to workout with her but she is going to to that with her new friends. So I signed up for this internet group to meet people since, my friends like I had said before are drifting away with their own lives.

We are still waiting on an answer from Jamey if he can get the 10th of April off or not. Time is ticking away and without a date nothing still cannot happen. I have at least one or two vendors calling or emailing me daily and my responses are always sorry no date yet.

It's to a point that I don't really care for this wedding anymore. It's not sparking my interests.( I still want to marry Scott though!) I checked my checklist on this website I subscribed to, two nights ago and I have 43...yes 43 things not checked off yet if my date is going be 4/10. That didn't freak me out or phase me one bit. Even yesterday when I walked into Office Max to purchase something for work I noticed plain invitations and said to myself "Gee we could use these, why stress out looking for the best ones for me when no one else seems to care".