So yesterday was the bridal expo at Germain Arena. I had asked my MOH to come with me last week or so. At first she was hesitant because it cost 5 dollars. I already know I am going to have to plan and pay for my bridal shower and bachelorette party all by myself, but come on 5 bucks. She finally said yes. Told Scott I finally got her to do something with me, he said please get a back up cause you know how she is. So I asked my mother if she bailed if she would come and she said yes.
O.K... So yesterday came. I was scheduled to get off at 1pm. My MOH wanted me at her house at 1. I said can I go home a get ready first... She said and I quote " I am a planner and I planned dinner out @ 5 or 6, don't have time for you to be late. The expo was 1 to 5, she needed to swing by her gmas house to pick up her son and I needed to swing to my parents house also. They are in San Carlos Park both of them. It takes 40 minutes to get home from there. So basically we had like an hour for the expo. She didn't have the decency to spend time with me. She's my MOH if I want a whole or Half of a day with her every week or other week then she should be willing. She wanted the position soo badly and now she wont step up?
I was going to have my long time friend (17+ yrs)be it but she lives in Gainsville and she has became very distant and wont talk to me about anything anymore so I changed me mind. I had like a few others on my mind to be bridesmaids but haven't asked them yet cause I have only known them for a few years. I'm not a loser that find anyone. Most of my friends have moved to far away places over the years so, I don't think they will even be able to make it to my wedding let alone be in it.
After the blow-up with my MOH I was pissed. My replacement at work came late and instead of leaving early I left on time. So couldn't make it to my MOH house by 1pm.
Anyways, My mother was my back-up for the Expo. Since I didn't remind her on Friday, she had forgotten about it and made plans. Well her Sunday plans are always to cook for my dad and g-pa or they get mad, so I don't blame her for forgettening. When I told my mother of what happened so far that day, she gave in and said lets go. I'm getting sick of having to act like I was 10-16 and cry and say nasty things to get my way. I'm grown now and want to simply ask and have a simple yes or no. I did that first but because I was so mad the brat came out. I said no I'll go by myself, you really don't want to come anyways. I drove there crying, walked in with an hour to spare. I saw like 8 or 9 couples I knew there and I freaked!!! Just freaked...maybe because I was alone and I absolutely hate being alone! Especially in a public place. I took some brochures and ran out the door!!! Went to my parents house had a great dinner and some drinks to calm down.
Oh and I ended up talking to my g-pa about school last night and he asked why I wasn't still Attending since I don't have a degree yet. I replied I have been changing majors so much I have wasted too much time. I told him I really want to be a teacher now and that's final. I also told him If I had the money I would go with no interruptions. All he said was oh ok. I thought I was so close for School money. My father even thought I got far cause that's like the first convo we have had in weeks/months. Yeah wedding money would be great but school money is even better!
